Once you are tagged you MUST write a blog entry about your 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.
1. There are usually two different monologues going on in my head at any given time. The first is commentating on pretty much whatever I am seeing or hearing, and the second is either off in fantasy land contemplating various fantasies or busy planning out whatever scenarios that I think I will encounter and all the various ways to respond to it. Incidentally, the only reason I know that the two run more or less concurrent is because of a third monologue that popped up one time when I became aware of the other two; it launched into a wondering spiel about whether or not this sort of thing is normal and whether or not I should talk to a professional.
2. I often contemplate the nature of thought. Why, for example, does my own voice in my head not really have any discernable vocal qualities to it, and why can I think in an elaborate and eloquent manner when you'd think that thought would be more geared to concepts than words? Take the word "is:" when I think of this word, I do not see the letters that compose it in my mind, I do not hear my voice say it, I can't really conceptualize it (after all, is is to be, and to be one must have a label and a quality or body, without either is is alone and meaningless.) So I neither see the word, hear it spoken in my mind, nor have a concept of how to imagine it, and yet I can think about it. These sorts of ponderings occur roughly a majority of the time I am awake.
3. I am predispositioned to commitment and will sincerely champion a cause with almost no forethought. On the flipside, I can also be lazy about such things.
4. I have a complex set of principles that I will abide by and enforce even when I'd otherwise not even care about what is going on. These principles are most likely a replacement for morals, of which I feel I have few.
5. I have my share of crazy moments, and they usually spring from a feeling of powerlessness. This is most especially true when I believe a situation is out of control, and distance is a supreme factor. That said, I crave control but temper it with a principle that is against taking advantage of people in a malicious manner.
6. I've got a lot of contradictions going on inside my skull. I don't like to trust people, and I hate that fact. When someone does earn my trust, I trust them to the point of being naive and usually end up hurt by that. I generally believe people should be able to fend for themselves (to the point where I have expected significant others to be able to handle situations that they might have wanted me to step in on,) and yet when I become protective of someone it is to an extreme degree. I don't get jealous of others, but when I do it is difficult to control. I don't get angry (I recall twice in the past five years) but when I do it is explosive. I have a great deal of self control, at times to the point of emotionlessness, but when exceptions occur I find it hard to moderate whatever emotion has taken hold.
Those whom I shall tag include the only person who reads my journal:
Penguin_War
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